Published: Flux (May 8, 2011)
Source: I purchased this book
GoodReads Summary: Tonight was so much worse than anything before it. Tonight he didn't stop after the first slap.
At the beginning of senior year, Ann was a smiling, straight-A student and track star with friends and a future. Then she met a haunted young man named Connor. Only she can heal his emotional scars; only he could make her feel so loved — and needed. Ann can't recall the pivotal moment it all changed, when she surrendered everything to be with him, but by graduation, her life has become a dangerous high wire act. Just one mistake could trigger Connor's rage, a senseless storm of cruel words and violence damaging everything — and everyone — in its path.
This evocative slideshow of flashbacks reveals a heartbreaking story of love gone terribly wrong.
My Thoughts: This was a hard read. Plain and simple. Beautifully, painfully written, But I Love Him painted the picture of an all-too-real danger that could affect anybody at any time.
There were times I wanted to scream at Ann for being so completely blind and stupid, defending Connor's intentions, making excuses for his glaringly unacceptable behavior. Jealousy and possessiveness is NOT attractive. I hated Connor from the very first page. I guess it didn't help that the story is unraveled starting from the day where Ann finally realized the severity of her situation and worked backwards to the day they met.
Though they contain similar subject matter, this book was a far cry from Stay by Deb Caletti, which is the only other book I've read about abusive relationships. Not to compare and contrast, but in Stay, I actually saw the attraction towards the abuser in the beginning. He was sweet, attentive, and playfully jealous. This book doesn't mess around and throws the horror right in your face from page one. I actually prefer it this way, because you have no choice but to read about how ugly it can get before you get to the lovey dovey junk.
This book is powerful. It's horrific and sad and a trainwreck. It made me angry. I stand firm that everyone should have to read this book or something similar. All too often, the red flags of potential physical/emotional abuse are often overlooked in the name of love or infatuation. The topic is presented in a realistic, raw fashion. If you are a fan of dark, emotional reads, this is one you will want to put at the top of your lists.