Thursday, September 6, 2012

My Thoughts: If I Stay by Gayle Foreman

Published: April 6, 2010
Speak, 234 pages, paperback
Source: purchased
Goodreads Summary: A critically acclaimed novel that will change the way you look at life, love, and family.

In the blink of an eye everything changes. Seventeen ­year-old Mia has no memory of the accident; she can only recall what happened afterwards, watching her own damaged body being taken from the wreck. Little by little she struggles to put together the pieces- to figure out what she has lost, what she has left, and the very difficult choice she must make. Heartwrenchingly beautiful, Mia's story will stay with you for a long, long time.

I can honestly say that I put off reading this book for years because of all the hype. What is it about hyped up books that makes me not want to read them? So many people have told me they've never cried harder at a book than at If I Stay, so I was expecting my heart to practically disintegrate.

Well, apparently I'm a horrible person. Because I didn't cry at all.

That's not to say that this book wasn't deeply touching. The family dynamic was perfect. I loved Mia's quirky, flawed, and lovable parents. I grew to love them. The accident scene? Gut-twisting. It nearly made me nauseous. I cannot imagine that kind of pain, nor do I ever want to. But Gayle Foreman sure can make me feel like I'm the one living it.

I loved the way If I Stay was written. The flashbacks to the present and back again. It made me love Mia. It made me LOVE Adam. And I'm telling you, the title of the book COULD NOT BE more fitting unless it was called "Stab My Soul with the Worst Kind of Sadness." Because it did. I was so sad that I couldn't even cry. I was numb.

Mia and Adam reminded me of another couple who broke my heart: Logan and Aura from Jeri Smith-Ready's Shade books. The musician thing, of course, but also the circumstances. If I were Mia? Hell, I have no idea what decision I'd have made. But I am definitely going to read on to Where She Went to find out the aftermath. Gayle Foreman is an AUTHOR, people. All caps for the real deal.


  1. I think I might have cried just a little in the beginning, but I didn't after that. Adam and Mia are so great. They are definitely on my favorite couples list.

  2. I cried at the beginning but I also BAWLED at the part where Adam is pleading with her to stay. Exited for you to read Where She Went. I think I loved it more!

  3. Great review, Jen! I'm not sure if I cried during this one -- I don't think so, BUT I absolutely loved it. Gayle Foreman is an excellent writer. I hope you enjoy Where She Went just as much! :)

  4. For some reason, this book and I aren't the best of friends like everyone else I know is. Apart from a tear or two at the beginning, I didn't cry. I don't have any motivation to read Where I Went but I am rather intrigued as it seems to be everyone's favourite of the two. Glad you had a better reading experience with this one than I did!

  5. Loved this book and OMG! I loved loved LOVED Where She Went even more. You love Adam now, but just wait - he's so great in WSW. I actually found it even more heartbreaking. Be prepared!

    1. Yes! Just thinking about it, makes me what to re-read it.

  6. I need to read this book soon! Just about everyone is telling me that it's a good book, and I'm curious to see for myself how much I'll like it.

  7. Oh girl if you think you loved Adam here, just WAIT for the sequel. EEEEEEEEEEEE!

  8. I am obsessed with Adam, he is still to this day, my favorite Book BF. Also, you NEED to read Where She Went. Cause My feelings of If I Stay were kind of the same as yours and then once I read Where She Went I took all the emotions of what I was reading and all the emotions from what I read in If I Stay and THAT is when I began crying.


    Boy, it feels good to get that out.
    Great book. I need to read book two. But I didn't cry.

  10. OH MY GAWDDDD! Where She Went! I LOVE THAT BOOK.

    And omg.

    That's all.

    Also, If I Stay turned me into a sobbing mess, but I'm the sensitive type, ya know?

  11. Oh I want to read the book, even though I have NO IDEA if it has a happy ending, of if I'm going to end sobbing through the entire thing.

    I hate you :P

    p.s. Jk ! :)